My anxiety panic attack.

He looks at me and doesn’t move his eyes

or turn away, or walk towards the door.

I am always afraid of looking into his eyes.

Every time I get close to him, I automatically forget who I am, I forget everything about myself and that includes my name. I am shy to even speak his name before my friends yet here he is. “I’m Sonnet” 

he says and smiles, approaching me

I am not sure what I am supposed to do at this point, run?

I shut and open my eyes praying to disappear.

“Are you scared of me? ” 

I freeze. Again he stretches his hand towards me.

I hold it…tender hand…he’s no pretender and now my wish is his command. I start sensing more than I can see. My mind wanders away… these are the hands that will stay with me through the years, that will wipe away my tears, that will love me forever, that.

We spend the rest of the day at the lake, I have somehow suddenly turned confident,

have I caught a bug that has suddenly turned me suave from glum?

We are already planning our marriage alliance.

Turning over, the scene is ending.

I am actually in bed, and he is somewhere unknown. I am daydreaming again. Alone I’m awake from my dreams one more time